I Am Different

I am different.
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I feel it from a multidimensional perspective.
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It is more than a neurotype, it is a way of 'being' in this world.
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Yet, the words 'being' and 'world' are not enough.
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There is no language to express my "autism".
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Because it's more than autism.
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Words, verbal language is not my first language.
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It is not my native tongue.
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Energy is. Presence is. Feeling is.
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I don't feel with just my emotions.
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I feel with my entire being, what is seen of me, and what is unseen.
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I experience BEING with my entire physical, ethereal, spiritual, emotional, mental, energetic, expansive existence.
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Whatever that is; whatever I am.
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I am not confined to my flesh.
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I am expansive; I am neither here, nor there.
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And you, you are not so different.
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You only experience yourself and your surroundings differently.
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Because I am tuned in to so much more,
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There is more for me to fear.
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Because I 'feel' with more than just my heart,
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There is more pain.
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And there is more joy.
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My pain, and my joy,
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Cannot be contained within my physical body.
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It doesn't only exist there.
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Because I am expansive,
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Because my 'being' flows and is connected with all that surrounds me,
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My sensing, my feeling, my experiencing,
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Reaches out, beyond my body,
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To touch the cells of what is unseen and unknown
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And unfelt,
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By others.
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My sounds,
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My movement,
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My connection to my environment,
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Is sacred.
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It is holy.
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It is more than who I am,
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It is an expression of my being
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That merely touches on
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My difference.
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And here we are
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With an opportunity
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A blessing
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To connect
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To see each other
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To join the dots
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To be still
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To meet with our being
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And you only see disorder.
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My heart breaks for you,
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And what you are missing.
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Kristy Forbes
inTune Pathways