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When the pressure is off Apr 27, 2020

I’m sitting out on the balcony, really loving the breeze and the trees and the birds and I’ve been thinking about going home in four days.

How much I miss my little girls and my husband and my home.

This is the first time since I was eighteen years old that I’ve been able to get...

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My Mother didn't sleep for years Apr 08, 2020

This would have been 1979/80.

Mum bouncing me on her knee, you'll notice a familiar expression for many autistic bubbies on my face.

We're taking in so much information all of the time, all that sensory goodness and badness, along with voices, faces, all of it.

It's a lot and can leave us feeling...

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April is hard Apr 07, 2020

April. Is. Hard.

(The following is expressed with gentleness and respect from an autistic person, and from one parent to another).

Part of my identity in this lifetime is that I’m a Mum.

I’m a mother of four daughters.

I’m not an ‘autism mom’ and my childrens’...

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I am going home to do differently Mar 25, 2020

Good morning.

I’m sitting out on the balcony, really loving the breeze and the trees and the birds and I’ve been thinking about going home in four days.

How much I miss my little girls and my husband and my home.

This is the first time since I was eighteen years old that I’ve...

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I love you all Mar 20, 2020

Scrolling, reading, listening

Looking for loving energy

Kindness, gentleness, empathy and compassion

I am more present now, than ever

More aware of what energy I cultivate and put out into the universe right now

I’m looking for you, who like me is nervous but hopeful

I once spoke about the...

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This is not about our children Mar 19, 2020

Do you know how often families come to sit in consultation with me, with the intention of understanding their childrens' behaviour?

The number one focus is usually on our children, on how we can help them.

Guess what?

The consultations seldom end that way.

This isn't about our children.

This is...

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An opportunity to see ourselves Mar 18, 2020

My eldest daughter

My first child

She bore the brunt of my raw and heavy trauma

Reflected back to me

All the parts

Like a mirror

I was inaccessible

Locked away inside

Angry

Threatened

I didn't know what I know now

Most of it I know because of her

Our relationship was disconnected

For a really...

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Let us be kind Mar 17, 2020

Dearest NeuroDivergent kin,

My kin who hoard

My kin who are tactile defensive

Touch aversive

My kin who self isolate

My kin who home educate

Never has there been a time

Where we know

More than ever

That our ways

Our autistic culture

Will serve us

And others

We are organically

Built for this

Let...

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Stand proud in our identity and culture Mar 12, 2020

It is a wild offence

To stand upon the same ground

As our autistic ancestors

Who went unidentified

Dismissed, misunderstood

Invalidated and gaslit

And to not stand proud

In our identity and culture

With positive autistic identity

It is an outrageous insult

To be provided a time and place

Of...

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I learnt to always pretend Mar 11, 2020

I used to regularly go through periods in my life

Where I could feel myself unravelling

This could obviously only mean that

I spent the rest of the time tightly wound

Always hypervigilant about my behaviour

The way my face looked, my expressions

The way I moved my body

The tone, pitch and...

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Open Hearts Mar 10, 2020

I prioritise autistic voices.

I listen to and respect the lived experience of our community.

BUT I don't have to bully, shame and harass non autistic professionals and families in order to advocate or to be respected by my community.

If we spent as much time supporting our kin and their families...

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Morning Joy Mar 06, 2020

Joy

Morning joy

I’m always up before the birds and the sun

Always been a morning person

Partly due to a strategy developed in my early twenties 

To hit the deck as soon as my eyes opened

In order to avoid falling into the depressive abyss

 I often lived inside of

 Struggling...

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